Saturday, March 31, 2012

a guide to being alone:

  • the media center cubicles are a good place to eat lunch, but you have to be really quiet or else you might get yelled at. or softly chided at. either are unpleasant.
  • after school, practice music or painting or anything that interests you
  • observe everything. make up stories
  • leave notes for other people that are alone
  • bring a small book to read everywhere you go. open up to a page when faced with a potential social situation.
  • quietly talk to yourself. have inside jokes with yourself. become your own best friend.
  • you don't need anybody


Thursday, March 22, 2012

It's sad to see four years of hard work dismissed with only a few keystrokes. 


Monday, March 12, 2012

Earlier tonight, my dad and I went on a walk in the Christmas tree farm. The air was unusually warm, the perfect temperature with which our flesh and blood may resonate. The west sky glowed pink in the dark, an ironically beautiful reminder of the busy urban night life a few towns over. He pointed a flashlight across the pond, and we could see the eerie yellow spheres of animal eyes staring at us.


Friday, March 2, 2012

 Last night I had the most horrible, frightening dream and an invisible entity would press my face into the pillow and invade my thoughts and I couldn't escape it no matter where I went. It filled my head with images of dead bodies and I screamed and screamed. Why are you doing this to me? I'm a good person!
 When I finally pulled myself from my dream, I was lying in my dark room at four in the morning with no way of knowing if any of it was true. So I crawled into my parents' room and cried and stayed home from school.
 College is going to be hard.



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